Saturday, September 12, 2015

Drown Me in the Stars

321 Blast off, in a rocket ship I run
From this world I’m leaving you
Running far far far away
Don’t wait up
I’ll see you on the other side,
but today I’m running away.

Drown me in the stars,
I’d like to sail away
in a rocket ship bound for outer space.

Drown me in the stars,
I want to run away
to a new place where I am free,
free from you, free from me,
free from everything

We can’t turn back now
we’re halfway to the moon
next time you see me
I’ll be dancing on the stars.
Running from galaxy to galaxy,
There is a whole universe
that is waiting for me.

Drown me in the stars,
I’d like to sail away
in a rocket ship bound for outer space.

Drown me in the stars,
I want to run away
to a new place where I am free,
free from you, free from me,
free from everything

If you ever start to miss me,
just look to the sky,
I’ll be there looking down on you.

Drown me in the stars.

Lovely

Lovely

Tuning: Standard, Capo on 6th fret

Verse 1, 2, Chorus pt.1, Chorus pt.2
G  Em  Am  C

Song Structure
Intro       x4
Chorus pt.2 x4
Verse 1     x2
Intro       x2
Chorus pt.1 x4
Chorus pt.2 x4
Verse 2     x3
Chorus pt.1 x4
Chorus pt.2 x4
Intro       x2
Bridge      x4
Intro      x10
Chorus Pt.2
When a tree falls, can you hear it?
When I scream for you, do you feel it?
Can you hear the whispers of my soul?
Can you hear the whispers of my soul?

Verse 1
A pretty girl, with dreams in her head.
A life yet to be lived.
A life already wrecked.
What a pretty girl.

Verse 2
What a pretty world it is.
She could see it through his eyes.
The beauty, the wonder,
through his little green eyes.

Bridge
Close your eyes,
and pretend it’s all a bad dream.
Close your eyes,
it’s all just a bad dream.
Chorus Pt.1
Oh darling, lovely, how’ve you been?
It’s a funny world out there, but you got to swim.
Oh darling, darling lovely

Intro & Bridge

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B|---------6-------6--------7--------7---|
G|----6--------6--------8--------6-------|
D|------6--------8--------8--------8-----|
A|--8--------8--------6--------9---------|
E|---------------------------------------|

Monday, April 13, 2015

The Incredible Thing that Happened to Me Over the Summer


A rose can say "I love you",
orchids can enthrall,
but a weed bouquet in a chubby fist,
yes, that says it all.
~Author Unknown
“I’ll see you at 12:30.”
“Okay.”
“Love you.”
“Love you, too”
My mother had been dropping me off at Strong Minds Child Development Center since the beginning of April. My mom works for the county library as an Early Literacy Outreach specialist, which means she does storytime at daycares. Strong Minds was just one of the many poorly named daycares.
When I arrived, Paige opened the door. Her long black hair was tied up in a bun on top of her head. Page had worked there for 2 years.
Inside the daycare, a large room was decorated with finger painting and papers covered with scribbles. The room was divided in half with a wooden gate to separate the babies from the older kids. One wall was lined with shelves full of toys and cots. Jordan ran up to me and gave me a hug.  
“Hi Jordan.” I said.
“What’s your name?” Jo Jo asked in his high voice. He was sitting at the table behind me playing with his Angry Birds.
“You know my name.”, I said, What’s your name?” I sat down on one of the teeny-tiny chairs at the table.
“Jo Jo Isadore Lewis.” Jo Jo was one of four children with odd names. There was Carmin Lilly, Dominic Bosco, Joseph Isadore, and Maximilian Leo. They all looked exactly the same: big brown eyes and light brown hair. The four of them were often poorly dressed: Carmin wore the same clothes two days in a row while Dominic always dressed like a tourist, plaid pants and a Hawaiian floral shirt. Jo Jo, on the other hand, wore shorts and a t-shirt in December. And little Maxi, who was just learning to walk, wore clothes three sizes too small.
Layla stared wide eyed as a squirrel ran across the fence.
“Wow”. Her mouth hung open in awe. The squirrel jumped onto a tree branch and scurried out of site.
“Hey,” she squealed. Layla was two and under the delusion that she could turn into a cat. She would purr and meow and nuzzle her head up against you. Layla was the definition of sweet. When her mom dropped her off in the morning, she always ran up to Paige and said, “Hey beautiful!”
“Daffy!” Aaliyah shouted from the baby’s side. Aaliyah had a big afro nearly the size of her; she had even bigger sass. She called me at least a hundred different names. Daffy was one of them.
“Hi Liyah,”  I said. She walked to me with a toy phone up to her ear.
“Hello,” she said into the phone.
Liyah held the phone up to my ear. “Hello Aaliyah.”
“Hi Gophie,” she said into the phone. “Bye bye.”
Aaliyah was the youngest of three. Her siblings included Aubrey, seven, Alijah, four, and Aaliyah, almost two. The three of them lived in a little 2 bedroom apartment with their mother in Southgate. Aubrey and Alijah shared the bedroom in the back. Aubrey’s bed was covered with all things Hello Kitty. She had a Hello Kitty bedspread, pillow, sheets, and blanket. Her Hello Kitty slippers sat at the foot of her bed.
Alijah’s bed was covered with everything Ninja Turtles. His blanket lay the end of the bed; he liked to tie the blanket around his head and pretend he was a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle himself.
Aaliyah and her mom shared the other bedroom. A queen sized bed and an old TV were crammed into the little room. Two windows on the wall facing the door were covered by blinds. The closet door was slightly open and inside were a bunch of Aaliyah's teeny tiny clothes.
Although many of the kids at the daycare were very protective of their younger siblings, Alijah was especially protective of Aaliyah. Once, I witnessed Alijah tell a little boy who was poking and annoying Aaliyah, that he had his eye on him. Waylon, who wasn’t even two, kept tapping Aaliyah’s shoulder. Aaliyah screamed to stop and Alijah turned around so fast he nearly knocked his chair over. He just stared at Waylon for a few minutes.
“You better stop poking Li-Li. I got my eye on you.” said Alijah. Waylon just stared at him dumbfounded.
Aaliyah walked up to me with the yellow Belle dress in her hand.
“Dophie, put on.” She lifted her arms up so I could help her put on the dress. I slipped the dress over her Tweety bird shirt and matching shorts. I secured the velcro in the back, and she stepped back and smoothed out the dress. She spun around like a princess.
“I be beautiful Daffy!” she beamed.
The kids finished eating their lunch: tacos and applesauce. One by one they walked to the front room to take their naps. The babies were already asleep in their cribs by the time the older kids finished their lunch. The older kids removed their shoes and laid down on their cots except for Aria, who refused to take off her shoes. She slept in them everyday.
A knock came at the door. My mom was waiting for me outside.
“See ya Soph,” said Paige.
“See ya,” I said.
“How was your day?” my mom asked when we were outside.
“Fine.” I got into the car and fastened my seat belt.  I pushed the black power button on the radio and Katy Perry’s “Roar” blared from the speakers: “I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire. ‘Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar!”
I couldn’t help but sing along.
A green arrow flashed on the dashboard accompanied by an annoying beep. My mom turned onto Memorial Parkway.
“You're gonna hear me roar…”
The song ended and the radio station cut to a commercial. My mom turned the corner onto our street. My next door neighbor Kalum, along with his mom and baby brother, were outside taking a walk. Kalum raced ahead on his little bike. His mom trailed behind pushing his little brother in a stroller.  My mom pulled into our driveway.
“I have to work late, so I probably won’t be home until around seven,” she said.
“Okay.”
“Love you.”
“Love you, too.”
I hopped out of the car and walked up to the steps to our nice little house. Our nice little house in our little town with all its nice people. While Just a few miles away, a little girl was growing up in a tiny apartment that reeked of smoke with a daddy that she never saw; all because she wasn’t as lucky as the rest of us.
Aaliyah was no worse of a person than Kalum or his baby brother. She had just gotten the short end of the stick.

There are no seven wonders of the world in the eyes of a child. There are seven million. ~Walt Streightiff

My Relationship with Technology



I have a desktop, a laptop, a phone, and a TV. I have a Facebook, a Pinterest, and an Instagram. I also watch Youtube videos (though honestly, those bore me). Social media is great for staying in touch with people, but I often just mindlessly scroll through posts and shares; I can keep in touch fine without it. Nevertheless, I find myself constantly checking social media out of boredom. Occasionally, I will have a quality conversation or learn something new about someone, but those instances are pretty rare; usually, I just waste my time.
Like most people my age, I have a phone. However, it isn’t a smartphone. It doesn’t text, tweet or surf the web; it merely calls people. But I am not complaining. It does what I need it to do. I rarely take it out of the house; it usually just sits in a basket beside my desk. I might make one phone call a day to see when my mom is coming home, or if my dad could pick up something while he is at the grocery. My phone definitely isn’t as important to me as it is to as many of my friends and peers.
I don’t think that I use technology as much as the average 13 year old, but do feel like I waste quite a bit of time on it. Technology allows us to do wonderful things, and we have done wonderful things because of it. Too often we use it to waste time. Maybe, if we stopped scrolling through posts and shares we could look up from our screens to notice the beautiful world we live in.





“I Have a Dream”

I had heard Martin Luther King’s ‘I have a dream’ quote many times before. I had not, however, heard the rest of the speech. I was well aware that MLK was seen as an excellent writer and public speaker, but I had no idea of just how great he was with words. As a person who already shared MLK’s views on racial injustice, I went into the film expecting to feel the same way coming out, but I was very surprised at how moved I was by the speech. Martin Luther King spoke in a way that didn’t just make you agree with him, but made you feel the need to take action.
Martin Luther King said “We can not turn back. There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights, ‘When will you be satisfied?’ We can never be satisfied as long as the Negro is the victim of unspeakable horrors of police brutality.” MLK asked for a world where people of different ethnic backgrounds were treated as equals by the government and the rest of America, but fifty years after The March on Washington, African-Americans are still being harassed and hurt by officers of the law. It has been 150 years since the end of the Civil War and we still can’t get our act together. However, that does not mean that we can’t achieve equality; Martin Luther King said “1963 is not an end but a beginning.” We are yet to reach the end, but we have come very far and we can keep going.


History Valentine's Day

Valentine’s Day has become one of the most celebrated holidays in the U.S. today. On average, Americans spend almost 14 billion dollars on chocolates, flowers, and other sweet treats for their Valentine. The origins of Valentine’s Day date back hundreds of years ago when Pagans celebrated a Lupercalia, a festival held in the middle of February to honor either the she-wolf of Rome, Lupa, or Faunus, the god of fertility. In an attempt to convert Pagans to Christianity, Pope Gelasius declared February 14th Valentine’s Day in honor of St. Valentine.
St. Valentine is thought to have been a Roman priest living under the rule of Claudius the second. Claudius the second believed that men fought better when they weren’t distracted by their wives. So, he made it illegal for young men to get married. However, St. Valentine continued to marry couples in secret. Eventually, he was caught and sentenced to death, but before his  execution he became good friends with the jailer's daughter. On the morning of his execution, he gave the jailer's daughter a goodbye note signed “your Valentine.”; this is where the iconic phrase comes from.
Valentine’s Day didn’t catch on in the U.S. until the mid 1800s when companies started selling Valentine’s cards and postage became more affordable. Since then, Valentine’s Day has grown to become a widely celebrated commercial holiday. Thirty Five million boxes of chocolate are sold every Valentine’s Day and more cards are sold than any other holiday with the exception of Christmas.  

Works Cited

Barth, Edna, and Ursula Arndt. "How St. Valentine's Day Came to Be."Hearts, Cupids, and Red Roses: The Story of the Valentine Symbols. New York: Seabury, 1974. 6-11. Print.
"History of Valentine’s Day." History.com. A&E Television Networks, n.d. Web. 11 Feb. 2015.


Generational Poverty

“ We cannot blame the victims of poverty for being in poverty. Economic systems are far beyond the reach of most people’s control. Factories close, small farms fold, racism persists, and the economy fails to provide enough well-paying jobs.” (Payne, DeVol, Smith 8)

We all must face challenges in our lives, some of us more than others. Those who were not given the gift of a safe home, well educated parents, food always in the fridge know this too well to be true. These people are the victims of generational poverty. They must suffer through many hardships in their lifetime, only because they happened to be born into an underprivileged family.
There are two types of poverty: situational poverty and generational poverty. Situational poverty is when a family falls into poverty for a short period time due to a sudden change, such as an environmental disaster, an injury, or the loss of a job. Generational poverty is defined as a family being in poverty for more than two generations. One of the huge differences between situational and generational poverty is the difference in the lack of resources. In situational poverty you are missing something that can be replaced more easily: houses can be repaired, injuries can be healed, and new jobs can be found. In generational poverty it is far worse. The lack of a good education, mental support, and all the other things needed to live a happy, independent life are harder to come by. Studies have shown that it takes at least two to four years to work your way out of poverty and into a well paying job with benefits. The challenge of escaping the cycle of poverty and moving into middle class can be nearly impossible.
One of the most common misconceptions of generational poverty is that people are only limited financially. That is not the case. People suffering from generational poverty also have limited education, emotional resources, and many other disadvantages.
A good education is crucially important in escaping the cycle of poverty. Those with no diploma or GED will find that it is nearly impossible to find a job that makes a living wage. Even with a diploma, it can still be very hard to find well paying work. People with college degrees make far more than people without. However, seeing as college is so expensive, it becomes hard for a poor child to attend. Even if one can receive financial aid, they may not be able to attend because they are needed at home. As well, because few impoverished students attend college, (due to the reasons above), it is not expected, and their for not the priority of families living in poverty.
Emotional resources are just as, if not more, important than educational resources. Mental stamina, an example of such resources, helps to withstand the hard situations that come with poverty. When emotional needs aren’t met as a child it can lead to a lack of emotional resources as an adult. When a child is forced into a position of too much responsibility (a common thing in generational poverty), they can suffer from many struggles as an adult because of it. When a kindergartener must get herself and her four year old sister up and ready every morning because her mother sleeps to till noon, she is required to put her emotional development on hold. The constant flux between dependence and independence is known as codependency. Codependency in childhood leads to adults being codependent later in life. They didn’t get the time to grow as a child and now they are forever trying to make up for it. Simply put, an unstable lifestyle can cause emotional problems and make it hard to live an independent life.
To fully understand generational poverty, one must understand the culture and lifestyle that surrounds it. Marissa was Tom’s fifth child, one of almost 8. Her, her little sister, and her older brothers lived with their grandmother, grandpa, and several dogs in a one bedroom trailer in a little Kentucky town. The trailer reeked of smoke and the floor was sunken in in places. The kitchen looked like it had just come from 1975. Blankets and pillows lay scattered on the floor where the boys slept; a massive CRT television sat in the corner facing the stained green love seat. Outside the ground was littered with rusting bikes and cigerette buds.
In the trailer next to theirs lived Tom’s girlfriend, Dawn, her two kids from previous relationships and Lillie, Tom and Dawn’s little girl. Damian was Dawn’s oldest son; he was 16 and severely handicapped. Her other son, Bobby, was seven. Dawn was due in early of 2015. She was pregnant with a baby girl who was to be Tom’s 8th child.
Marissa and her four older brothers shared the same mom. She left when Marissa was just a baby, 8 years ago. She was a meth addict. Nobody knows if she is dead or alive today.
Haylei is Tom’s sixth child. A couple of  months after she was born, Tom and her mom broke up. She took Haylei with her. No one heard from her from her for a couple months until one day when she came and dropped Haylei off at the trailer with Marissa's grandmother. That was the last time she saw her. She never came back.
Marissa’s dad was in and out of jail for drugs. He’s currently in right now due to a parole violation. However, Marissa told Mrs. Greis, her 3rd grade teacher, that her “Daddy’s PO checked the trailer and he didn’t find any of that stuff that he got in trouble for, so he might get to come home soon!”
In generational poverty, it is common to have many children and to start having children at a young age. Marissa's father had his oldest son when he was 17. Teenage pregnancy and having children in your early adult years helps to reinforce the cycle of poverty; it is harder to further your education, and get a better paying job when you have children to take care of. Not only is it common to have children young, but also to continue to have children well through your adult life. It is not unusual to have a child graduating high school and another one starting kindergarten the same year.
Like the Smith family and many other families suffering from poverty, the grandmother is often the caregiver and lives with the family. When the children’s mother isn’t there to take care of her children, the grandmother often fill this role. Even if the mother (or father) is the primary caregiver the grandmother is often seen as the go to babysitter. You will also find many cases where the parents have had custody taken away, and the grandparents raise the children.
Substance abuse problems and addiction are major problem’s in poverty culture. Fifteen to twenty percent of people living in poverty are thought to have substance abuse problems.  Marissa’s Father has been charged with multiple accounts of trafficking and drug possession. Addiction is an illness and must be treated like on in order to be cured. When ignored it will only get worse. There is of course hope; addiction is treatable, but when left to spiral out of control it can trap people and their families in the cycle of poverty.

Those who were misfortunate enough to be born into poor homes never did anything to deserve it. Marissa Smith is just a little girl with her own hopes and dreams, just like the rest of us. She never asked for the life she was given, but she got it anyway. She will forever be at disadvantage because of her bad luck. So, the next time you find yourself thinking that the world is out to get you, that what you have is not good enough, that you deserve better, I hope you remember how the other half lives.

Works Cited
Jensen, Eric. "Membership." Understanding the Nature of Poverty. N.p., 2009. Web. 17 Nov. 2014.
Payne, Ruby K., Philip E. DeVol, and Terie Dreussi. Smith. Bridges out of Poverty: Strategies for Professionals and Communities. N.p.: n.p., n.d. Print.